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No voice, no sore throat
Once again, I’m amazed at how long I’ve been away and how much I’ve thought about just hanging out where I hang. I didn’t think that the result of a more public life, more public blog experience would hinder me from just doing me. It has, but I’m not complaining or retreating by not writing. I am analyzing and trying to figure stuff out and analysis is paralysis. I’m not sure if I’m afraid. Afraid that my life coaching clients will peak over at dahgurl and realize “Hmmph, she ain’t dahgurl. She needs help herself.” Or if I’m afraid that someone close to me will be insulted/disappointed/slighted because I chose to sort through the journey of life in a book instead of on the phone with them. Hey, it’s happened, but this experience brings me back to a quote from my girl, my “idol” Toni Morrison. I’m paraphrasing here, but she said something like ‘I write what I would want to read and if other people like it, then that’s a bonus.’ Such confidence…maybe that’s the deal. Confidence.
I love writing.I love sharing. I think people tend to forget what life is all about–it’s about living. Living is doing/being/changing/stopping/regressing/growing/hurting/feeling. I mean, how could I be an effective life coach if I was in a glass bubble not experiencing life? Once again, I don’t need to ramble to you all. Here’s the other part to my lack o’ blogging as of late. I have not reconditioned my body to get up at 5 a.m. which really does work for me. I think I’ve learned, well I’m learning, if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it. I am better off when I go to bed between 10 and 11 and wake up at 5 a.m. My day seems to flow. Creativity and peace are at their peak. I also have not been working out like I would have liked and I know that’s effecting me as well. I’ve taken on some projects for others that have caused me to neglect or take away from my own stuff. I know, I know…I do say No without guilt when I’m led, but I haven’t been led to drop anything, let anything go. I’ve prayed and God told me to stand still and in another instance, He told me to help someone achieve what you’ve already achieved, in particular publish a book. What I’ve been doing is transcribing tapes/lectures and it was nt easy, but it only took me about 30 minutes per CD. After I got over the irritation of it, He reminded me that if I just taped my portion of the conversation when I’m coaching and helping people develop life changing strategies that I could be writing my next book. Hmmph. It pays to take time to listen to the voice of the Lord that lives inside of you. I am going to buy some old school audio tapes (my iPod recorder is broken) and I am going to start doing some podcasts for you all that I will publish soon.
I guess I’m telling you all that I’m finding my new voice, one that I’m comfortable with and until then I kinda have no voice, but I don’t have a sore throat either. I think about what I would tell my client if she shared with me my dilemma, I would say, “What do you really want, really really want? and what makes you feel good/your best/at the top of your game? And when those two line up, do that.” Hmmph. Writing for an audience every day has always been my thing and the idea that I got it done daily regardless of what was going on in my life–now that was powerful. So, please send your comments. let me know that you’re checking me out/pulling for me and I’m going to readjust my schedule and get myself back up and running. Thanks for the love. I’ll get my voice back soon, real soon.
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Yes, I had been checking in and saw that Chanda was writing again. I did check ou out at the parenting post. But just know that like you said when you listen to the God voice inside of you –you can not go wrong. And take some belly dance lessons to get your work out groove back and you will see how easy it is to do that when you are not planning too. It is something you can do while brushing your teeth:)