reflection

It’s Memorex

After 40 minutes of wrestling with BBB (Bighead Bigcheeked Baby), who is bright-eyed and loud, I am awake watching Sesame Street on Sprout at 5:00 in the morning. On any other day, I would think this was a sign, a blessing, but today, well yesterday was the first day of my cycle and I’m convinced that I have to take some kind of supplement, some kind of major diet adjustment the week before because I got issues. I mean, real issues. I’ve had my cycle since I was 9 and in my teens, really before I had kids, I just recall extreme pain, vomiting and almost being unable to move for a day or so. Once I had children, the cramps and discomfort decreased tremendously, but after my fourth child, ovulating became more difficult than my cycles. I’ve had PMS, but after this month, I know that something is not right. Now, I have a natural practioner who is giving me some help, but I was caught off guard by the intense emotions of this cycle–depression, agitation, irritability at every thing, pressure. WOW! I can’t imagine feeling like this every day. I’ve got to address this because I could have hurt someone yesterday.

How do you rebound or better yet how do you balamce and function on days like this? I mean, I felt so critical of myself and every one else, so overanalytical of me and my “state of the existence.”

I was thinking about what my address to the powers would be…

Well, we’ve overcome some bad habits and are continuing to fight in the War Against Clutter. Clutter does have strongholds in the girls bedroom and in the school room, but we are going to send in additional troops to find the rebel forces and get more territory reflective of our commitment to Operation Home Freedom. I know that some of you have been critical about my up and down emotions on this matter and I assure that my resolve is stronger than ever and with the help of Advil, chocolate, prayer and maybe group therapy, I will continue to fight for what I believe is the key to my overall survival. Thank you all for your support.

Yeah, I think I need a regular State of Our Family address in my house. I just feel like I’m pushing the kids to be better and to overcome their bad habits/embrace their strengths and maybe once again, I am asking too much or not giving them the tools. Then I feel like I need to give my husband some heads up before I start on another self-improvement crusade. He never knows what kind of charts/letter/boards I’ll have around the house. I guess that’s good, but I think I’ve decided to just…well, at least for today, I getting ready to go on a retreat, so instead of trying something new or ragging on what isn’t done, I’m just going to tighten up the routine/act like everyone else and just stop being live, changing, observing, Today, I’m just going memorex, so I can get ready for a well-deserved time away this weekend.

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